five five

i don't really feel like i'll always keep connected to the negative,
the knee jerk reactions to quite practical interactions
it isn't in my nature to recreate the trouble of the past unless its new, of course
and then i'll justify that lie with a smart ass reply until i break down and begin to cry
because i realize i'd been playing with fire
and i won't be able to explain myself unless its to have a fit
and throw my body to the floor
in desperation of learning something about not being a little kid
because i can't anymore

so today i ask my Higher Self
remind me of my past choices
and keep reprograming my actions, attitudes and emotion
enough to avoid the same lack of cautiousness

remove of me what is intolerant of present moments
and grow within me the inner insolation system
that protects me with heightened perception
of the love and devotion that is right within
my very nerve endings

the satisfying spiral of my world in my head
when i focus on the amazing worth that Love weighs
like experiencing mother earths beautiful Grace
i can carry myself away from whatever could hurt
and live on being serene and calm in my small space on earth


© LL