freedom

An intuitive eater can provide insight for what its like to just be content with sustenance and consumption. Yet its so common for an ED to suffocate your desire to be with and around others so it can have you all to itself. Its confusing, sneaky shenanigans plays a huge part in taking you from society and into sadness by yourself, fearful and focused on food. ED brain uses solo meal time to swoop in and suck satisfaction out of our mind and make us miserable with what were eating, how were feeling and suddenly we forget that we are deserving of more, less or anything at all and can use tools of self-destruction or bend lines of normal consumption all to end feeling fat, fucking crazy and feel more like being alone.... Initiating cycling mind fucking where the only inflicted individual is our self. That is our OLD reality.

Now... Once you start to find time with outwardly focused people (even if their focus is negative, as long as its not body image or food) we can view their simplicity in feeding themselves, the ease of food selection, how they find their fill line, when they scrape their plate, how they feel after what we figure is a "normal" meal, we then equate to how we find our own guidelines. What is this called?

FREEDOM. Through the simple, enjoyable act of people watching as we integrate into our families and friends lives we watch as fellows humans have been fending for themselves for thousands of years without the obsessive added factor of fear, physical focus or future repercussions for small, deserved acts of feeding ourselves and we can be the same kind of eater that most men we know have been, our obnoxiously thin sisters, cousins or aunts who just seem to maintain a healthy, happy body weight and we begin to live amongst the thin... But without the needed confirmation, without bold acts of restriction or unnecessary guidelines because we are just simply discerning, we are delighted to own every inch of flesh we fill on earth and we are finally letting go of the need to fight food, for booze, or for drugs in our own frame.

Our body, mind & heart are one through this lifetime and as we now let all 3 play an intricate part in the continuation of a life well lived. We are not bound by anything but faith in ourselves and in future. As we continue to find the ease of intuition with when we genuinely are hungry, how we feel about our food and how we've forgotten to focus on our thighs while we discerningly fill our strong, confident bodies... Our mind will thank us and our heart is filled with gratitude to God for each gift that we find ourselves getting.


© LL