please

i don't control my role in this world
and without a child of my own
i'm not owned by a soul
the only heart i can follow is my very own
and although it's not easy, i'm never alone
when i'm loyal, i'm in love
and when i'm not i'm just crushed
and when i'm far i can't feel
and if i can't feel than i'll veer
and i wouldn't intentionally hurt someone
but if i don't have a ring
than you can't hate on my fun
i wouldn't try to make messes
but i'm still growing up
and if you think men are pimps
then you can't call me a slut
my silly little soul
is looking to feel home
with genuine comfort
and consummate love
i crave understanding
and emotions that tingle
i feel the weight of the world
so i need a man who can lift it
i'm not really so sexual
but so very human
i have wrote texts
that made me feel stupid
but i rarely put out
so i'm trying to grow
into a brave adult woman
who is self sufficient
and i know i'm someone
who a man strives to keep winning
but while i'm still Lauren Lackner
and have lessons to learn
i'm in Bob's house,
i don't have a home
so please just let this be
i'm living my life
i'm existing and free

© LL