dull

it was dull
the entire thing
down to the end
from the begging
i don't lack passion
but it sure did
maybe because i'm not happy
maybe because of him
i'm not sure where it was missing
what makes something good
but i surely feel neglected
and i don't think i ever should
even when we were together
it was as if i didn't matter
i was only there for warmth
or to use him as my blanket
i never felt adored
or even not ignored
and i never really cared
that i would be better off bored
i waited for magic
or something good to happen
but instead i went and played with myself
until i got the courage to unravel it
now i'm sitting here wondering
if what he even felt was love
because since i expressed myself
my phones been awful quiet
if a girl says she feels unpretty
or wonders if you'd love her more
if she was really really skinny
then you remind her that shes beautiful
just the way she is
and maybe someday someone
will want to have your kids

© LL