it's not about that

I wonder if I'll ever stop freaking out about my weight
I wonder if I'll realize that I'm just a woman
...and I will fluctuate


I wonder if I'll get calmer and accept what it is
I wonder if it won't bother me if when I gain weight
... if I have a few kids


I don't know if I'll handle it
If I ever get "fat"
I tell myself it won't happen
... it can't get to that



I get crazy when the signs start to show
And when I look in the mirror and I see myself grow


I suppose I'll always have the same standards set
And I guess I won't let myself ever get to "that"



I guess being concerned about my weight,
for my health!... is in particularly smart
But I can't let it be based on something that it's not



For my insides I need health and proper absorption
For my mind I need nutrients and my body... a little stored fat
For my soul I need love and God is where I'll find it



So smash all the mirrors
That parts way behind you.

© LL