new mind

I've blown through days
With bad choices
because I listened
To sick little voices

It always started
with wanting to lose weight
By the time I knew it
I was stuffing my face

Once I puke then I was petrified
That I wouldn't get more food
Id spend the whole day
In an awful bad mood

I'd create situations
So that I can be alone
To not enjoy myself
in a psychotic zone

So now I'm replacing that
And taking a step in a better direction
And I'm doing it by thinking right
And using mind correction

Right now I'm a woman
Who chooses health
And I'm focused on days
Where I have spiritual wealth

What is inadament
It will come and go
But my health is vital
And my spirit should glow

To enjoy my life
I feel great
And I workout often
But not to lose weight

Now, I'm conscious and in control
Just because I'm happy
I'm a better person
To those who are around me

My drive and passion
Is experiencing my life
And living in each moment
Is all that I strive

I invision who I am
A person of class and grace
And I'm always happy
Says the smile on my face

Sure, I've been through some shit
But came out better than when I went in

So, here's to my subconscious
Accepting its new role
Because living in recovery
Is my only real goal

© LL