i had a spiritual awakening.
it began with someones death.
i realized i could never be anything here
but my very own little self.
this body i keep
i try my best
but it won't change much
it's stuck like this, i guess.
so, ok, i am
with how it goes.
i like my eyes
and i have an alright nose.
but if only i could feel
continually pretty,
i'd go further in life
but its just not in me.
i'm insecure,
i find,
that i'm worse off then most
because body dysmorphia
is like a resistant ghost.
no one can see it but i hear it all day
and i pray and pray
and yet the fucking thing
just won't go away.
but... the awakening i had
it taught me one thing
the only person against me
is my that inner degrading.
the rest of the world
despite its evil
is on my side
because there are good people.
i inspire
and i comfort
i bring joy
and delight
and i chose from now on
to make it all right.
i have no one to blame
and nothing i can't gain.
so, i'll use God's wisdom
and go make myself a name.
© LL
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