beyond my name,
and my frame
is my soul.
the core of who i am is this energy in my chest.
it is aware of the world the hours i am awake.
it puts my body to rest.
it expresses itself through my thoughts
and sometimes my verbalization.
it has no voice or image...
it is an energy that gives me personality, vitality and ability to connect.
my soul in itself is inexplainable, the most intricate portion of my being.
for the past 25 years and 11 months (insert your age)
that this body has been on earth-
my souls been inside it.
it sees what i see and helps compute every sense this body has.
i've been known to put down this body and dislike it's features.
so from my soul, here is an apology to his body
and declaration of gratitude.
from the left pink toe,
through each little bone in my foot,
to my left heal,
thank you. you've fotten me so far.
my ankle, strong in its bones and brave in its stance,
i'm grateful you've taken me places.
the meat of my calf,
my amazing left knee joint,
if it wasn't for your bending,
where would i be?
my big ass left thigh,
you've been through it all,
you're a big part of the reason
that i stand this tall.
my left hip, for all your flaws,
i'm forever indebted to your magic motion.
my organs inside that beautiful oblique
across my abdomin,
that belly button, once my source of nutrient,
thank you, thank you, thank you.
my left ribs up to my chest,
heart! i'm SO thankful you still pump blood.
thank you. thank you.
my colar bone, this soul delights in you.
shoulder, amazing, you are.
arm, elbow, forearm,
oh that left hand...
you're partially retarded but GOD, i love you,
thank you. you type like a badass.
back to that chest, sternum,
you're so strong and amazing...
speaking from soul perspective...
i feel so close to you sternum...
like you're my bed. i'm so grateful for you.
down every inch from my painful right shoulder...
down through my whole arm...
you're all so appreciated.
right hand... you've literally been my everything.
you're this bodies source of food
and poetic expression... among things i can not even begin to explain,
you're a major part of the function i've found in this frame...
thank you.
breasts and all thats behind them...
lungs and blood.
all veins, arteries,
my liver, gaul bladder,
kidneys, intestines...
all mighty miles of my intestines...
and how could i forget...
my esophogas... goodness...
my soul is sorry and also thankful..
miles and miles of digestion...
this soul would be somewhere else without you.
reproductive organs for all your pain
you're so powerful.
beautiful between my legs...
you deserve endless thanks...
you make this soul experience this body
and get to feel soooooooo good.
my back... even that crooked spine,
every nerve.
every folical...
my hair.
my nails..
THANK YOU...
my soul is SO grateful you're all existing
and working together to keep Lauren living.
this home has been warm, strong, brave and beat up...
but still wakes up everyday and kicks total butt.
you're a wonderful body...
bob and barbara's kid...
i wouldn't want to be anywhere else...
so until you stop moving,
this is where i'll live.
© LL
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